A Rant after a hiatus

Back again after a long break from blogging and it has been a swell time. Firstly, i turned 21, and that was a fun night. Secondly, i had finals which went pretty well even though i wrote over 50 pages my last week and a half of school. Thirdly, i enjoyed the holiday season thouroughly, as Christmas was fun as it allways is. But i have come to a sobering conclusion during my time back home that was hard to come to grips with. The fact that the social situation back home won't be as good as i always idealize it to be.

Reason being that i have a solid group of friends back home, and i'm grateful for that. Blair, Eddie, Alex, Rod, Marder, Bobby, Soffer, and Gordan are all good guys and no one could ask for more than that. We hang out with other people we knew from high school occasionaly but for one reason or another we are just not as good as friends with them. When i went to high school i was coming from a Catholic grade school where my graduating class was 27 kids. I went from knowing everyone in my school to knowing nobody at high school except for the few kids from grade school that went to high school.
As a result it took me a long time to make a new group of friends because everyone was stuck in their own cliques, while i was an outsider. I didn't do anything special to stand out in high school besides my rapier wit, but it took me a while to endear myself to a new group of people. High school was a good learning experience as i learned how to hold my head above the fray of cliques and went through high school as a floater, a kid who really didn't conform to one clique, who was willing to chill with anyone.
I thought after people went to college and had to break away from their high school cliques, that things would be different when i got back to Oak Park. That somehow kids would be more open to hanging out with kids they didn't hang out with in highschool, but unfortunately that has not been the case. I've always prided myself on being open to hanging out with anybody that treated me with respect and was fun to hang out with. I didn't care if you were a jock, a nerd, a druggie, or any other stereotype, as long as you were loyal to me, i would be the same back. But it seems like i'm stuck in a rut right now back home with my same group of friends from high school. It's great and all, but i wish i had a bigger pool of kids to hang out with so i wouldn't have to rely on my solid group 100% of the time to hang out.
Take for instance last night, i saw a bunch of guys from high school that i hadn't seen in a while, a couple of them i knew back from ascension when i rolled into Sub T after a night of beers and bowling. I said hi to the guys, and what did i get in return? Nothing, absolutely nothing. Those kids just plain thought they were too cool to acknowlege my greetings. This town is just full of tools and jerks. It's a sobering conclusion, but it will help me on my path to adulthood to realize that some people just aren't worth the time or effort. And it was funny to realize how few kids from ascension turned into decent people. From a class of 27 i decided that only 5 or so were worthy of being called a "good person" and i barely made the cut myself.

After that realization its easier to let things like that go. I have a great situation at Notre Dame with my group of friends, and my buddies back home are great people. I really have no complaints except for a lack of female companionship but all good things come to those who wait. Hopefully i'll find one while i'm drunk out on the town this new year's but we'll have to wait and see.

Until next month i bid you all a happy new years